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Form versus Function (5 of 6)

Shane Willard

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What are we missing? Volume - maybe God's deaf, right? So we do this stuff, and we get louder, and we get louder, and we get louder, and we get louder, and we step back. We say: do you feel better? He says: no - which at this point, if he was smart, he would have just said: yes - so we'd leave him alone.

What are we missing? What form are we missing? Tongues! We haven't done the tongues thing yet, so we're like: hey [Prays in tongues] right, we're doing this stuff, and we've got our hands on him, we've got agreement, we've got volume, we've got oil, we got tongues baby, we got it going on! We step back and we say: do you feel better; and he says: no.

What are we missing? Demons, maybe he's got a demon. He's got a demon, so we get the demon off of him, we're doing all this stuff, and we step back and say: do you feel better? He says: no; and we think: ooh, what are we missing? Man, what are we missing here?

Then we run out of form. We run out of everything, we run out of form, and he still doesn't feel better; so then we turn it on him, and we say: “maybe you just don't have faith”. Yeah - and so the same word - oh I forgot, oh yeah, we stand on the word right, yeah, like God forgot what He wrote, remember, so we're doing this whole thing, and we turn it around on Him, and we did.

I'm praying for Kim. I'm doing all the forms, every form I can think of, and then I was so full of faith. I was 19, I'd fasted all week, I was skinny - and wanted to go eat at Outback afterwards; and I had oil - I mean this poor girl, her head drenched in oil. I mean, demons were outside the door, shivering from fear, like they were so scared of me, you know?

I was so full of faith, and I said: Kim, get up out of that wheelchair and walk - which is a disaster, if you've missed it. I was just - my heart was so good I'm telling you, I was - she said: okay, and she stood up, and fell flat on her face. Oh no! I wanted to die! I wanted to crawl under the carpet, and just disappear from the face of the earth. Just this odd feeling; and I was such a form thinker. I was even a form thinker with demons - which will get you beat up.

My first encounter with a demon, I was 19 years old, and it was at the Presbyterian Church, and I was the only one in the room that they thought knew what to do. I didn't know what to do. I just knew what I thought I knew - which is really bad; when you don't know what you don't know - it's really scary. This lady was about, I don't know, 130 pounds or so, not a very petite lady - and she beat four grown men.

I mean she beat us. I mean she had this one big guy picked up - 6'5", 250lbs, played full scholarship basketball for Oklahoma. She had him off the ground; and he's like: Shane - get her off of me man! And so I did this full gainer; and so you know, we didn't know what we were doing.

They said: Shane, what do we do? I said: I don't know! I said: wait a minute, I've seen this on TV! I said: look at me! She's on the ground (growling sounds). I'm like: look at me! (growling sounds) and then I thought: wait a minute, what am I missing? I'm missing something. There's some form - oh, in Jesus' name - look at me in Jesus' name! She went: grrr; and then I didn't know what to do.

I just knew what I had read about what Jesus did, so I said: you loose her in Jesus' name; and this is what - she's laying there. She goes (in a growling voice): NO! And I went: okey-dokey, I don't know what to do!

I just said: “in Jesus' name” - and you're staying - that's my ace of spades - I have no idea where to go from here! You're not supposed to be able to say “no” to Jesus' name - what are you talking about, you know? Then I found myself arguing with this devil. It was weird. It was the weirdest, most ethereal, 19 year old experience; like other kids my age were out drinking and partying. I'm out throwing out devils, and whoa! And I needed a towel for my pants you know…

Then this thing came over me, like this confidence came over me, and I thought this: I was walking away from the lady. I'm like: I don't know what to do with that, and then this thing came over me, and this thought: “demons can lie”!