She said: oh no babe, I'd hate to send myself to hell - and maybe somebody else too. I said: I can see sending yourself to hell; but somebody else - how do you get that?
She said: I'd hate to give a man a lustful thought!
Like no fear there! You could show up in a bikini to a sex addicts conference - they'll be okay. Like come on - there hasn't been a lustful thought about you in years! Nothing's in the right place! Come on! It's bondage.
Its bondage; so I started hallowing all kinds of things in secret. Like the Bible says: “be still and know that He is God”. You know what I did? I would be still - and know that I am bad! In a way, there should be a sense of: “be merciful to me, a sinner, o God. I have no hope but You”.
In a way, that's healthy - but in another way, what I hallow in secret, I'll manifest in public. When I hallowed guilt - I acted guilty.
We always hallow things - has anybody besides me ever hallowed anger? Anger is not an emotion you can afford!
I have a master's degree in clinical psychology. I can tell you that when you get angry - the average person loses 25% of their IQ! It’s because the blood leaves your brain - it goes to the major muscle groups, to prepare for a fight.
The average IQ is 100 points; and dysfunctionally-retarded is 70; so when the average person gets angry... they are this close to being retarded!
Have you ever said anything that you've regretted when you were angry? Have you ever said anything smart when you're angry? No!
Some men get so mad they can't even complete a sentence, so they grunt. I know of men that have gotten so mad they put their fist into a wall that doesn't move. Brilliant!
If you're married, and two of you get mad - you've got two mentally retarded people trying to solve a problem! Diminished capacity at the best!
But we hallow anger... Has anybody (besides me) ever been in a conflict situation; and after you walked away - you thought of everything you could have said? We love imaginary conversations - because you never lose. If you're losing imaginary conversations - get your head checked - because it's your imagination!
We hallow anger; and we hallow ‘getting our way’. Has anybody (besides me) ever hallowed depression? Anybody (besides me) ever had a successful depression? It's brilliant!
Anybody (besides me) ever hallowed rejection? Somebody broke our heart, and we convince ourselves that everybody's going to break our heart from now on - and we hallow it and we build it around our life.
Anybody (besides me) ever hallowed insecurity - what if they don't like me? What we hallow in secret - we manifest in public. We create our own sort of atmosphere, which draws it to ourselves, and with God
I hallowed my own guilt. I hallowed this thought that God didn't like me very much. I had this thought in my bed at night, that God really didn't like me very much. He was mad at me. If I did 98 things right, but two things wrong - I'd go to bed thinking about the two things I did wrong.
It’s total sin-consciousness - I hallowed it; and I thought: maybe by hallowing it, I could make myself feel worse about it - which would maybe make God like me just a little bit more. But what I found is: the more I hallowed it in secret, the more I manifested it in public.
I realised that I was having a real problem relating with God. It wasn't God's problem, and it wasn't an intelligence issue, or a study problem, or a lack of discipline.